So, I drove to the Ackerland airport yesterday. It was a longshot, to say the least. But, I was itching for some answers...probably lonely and starved for companionship...I must admit. Without reservations, I just drove all the way up there without calling first, and didn't even know if anyone would be there, or if the place was even open.
I want to scream out loud! I don't even know why I am doing this! If I ever do find T, what will I do then? I'm still in the same situation as before, with a son's happiness at stake. I do not want to destroy it. My conscience tells me to forget about him and move on, but as hard as I try, I can't. After all this time, I still love him.
I really don't know what I'm going to do next. I know that many of are thinking, "there she goes again". Well, you're right. Just when I though that I had it all figured out, something happened, and I realized that I have no idea what I'm doing.